It’s Friday. Thank god.

I was going to post a Friday Favorite, but I spazzed at the last minute, and couldn’t think of anything. How’s that for indecisiveness? Anyway, it has come to my attention (by my own personal reflection, but it still counts) that I’m always looking forward to the ends of things. The last books of a series or trilogy are my favorites. I like being last in line, so when I’m finished, it’s all finished.

I can’t wait until something is finished so I can move on to the next thing — but when the next thing gets here, I can’t wait until that is over. It seems that I am wishing my life away, expecting something else to be better, and then it never is.

Why do you think Fridays are my favorite day of the week? I can work hard that day, but then the week is over and the weekend begins. The next week has to be better, right?

Maybe my big problem is contentment. I keep thinking that the grass will be greener on the other side, but then it never is. Maybe I build it up too high? Build it up to the point that it can never be as good as I make it out to be? I don’t know, but I do know that this has got to stop. Like now. I keep saying, “As soon as school is over and wedding planning is done, then things can finally get to a place that I’ll be happy. Things will finally start to calm down, and things will be great.”

Um, right. I remember looking back on old entries and saying, “As soon as I leave this job at the bank, things will be great at my new job. I can’t wait.” And how are things at the new job, you ask?

You can answer that one for yourself. Thank you, stupid boss.

Anyway. My point being, I need to work on being content in the place that I am currently located. I need to say, “Ok, I realize that my school is putting me through hell, and I just want to get out, but I know that as soon as I’m out, I’ll want to go back again.”

“I know that wedding planning is stressful sometimes, even though I didn’t want it to be. But as soon as the wedding is over, real life sets in. And that’s never as fun as the wedding process. It’s just day-to-day after that. Be happy where you are.”

“And even though I have a sadass boss man who, I feel, needs to let someone else do what he can’t do, this job is extremely flexible, I work with many kind people who are very encouraging and forgiving and it really isn’t that hard. I mean, hell, I’m at home right now on a Friday and no one cares. How’s that for cushiony?”

So I’m going to try hard to complain less and be more proactive in my daily endeavors.

Because we only live life once, right?